The Circle of my Flesh

Beatriz Zamora

“On that path and in that time I formed, destroyed and rebuilt myself multiple times in the attempt to transform myself into a being-for-itself.”

In "The Circle of My Flesh," Bea Zamora, an interdisciplinary artist from El Salvador based in Guatemala, addresses the journey of motherhood seeking its individuality, no longer as a mother-wife but as an agent that demands time and space for herself, and questions the unreal ideal of the mother-unique-loving-sacrificed.

“‘The circle of my flesh’ arises from a thirty-year process in which I always felt I lived in a body-for-others and from which I gave birth to a series of writings in the form of diaries,” says the artist, and she remembers: “Shortly before I was ten years old, I was surprised by my first menstruation. I turned to my mother who, in sudden joy -inexplicable to me- took me to the home library to show me the female anatomical body in a volume of the Medical Encyclopedia. She told me that I had become a woman and warned me of the danger of getting pregnant. And before I could ask her a question, my mother closed the book.”

“My mother's plan was fulfilled ten years later when I became pregnant. It was not until two decades later that I conquered a room of my own to grow, create and reinvent myself.”

“In ‘The circle of my flesh,’ all times and all emotions are intermingled in my attempts to protect the beings I engendered with my body. The same body that limits me, walls of containment, is the one through which I free myself: with it I not only opened all the books I needed to read but also with it I rewrite them, from the circle of my flesh.”

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